my life just hit the lowest, but i've got nobody to hold on to.

I'm a disappointment. I'm sad, but what can I do? With my results I deserve all this. My dad say this:' you study cannot, your room also don't know how to keep clean, you really very unless, when you go out don't say I'm your father.' this sentence rang in my ear continuously . And I've been thinking, yeah I'm really useless, my brother gets straight A's or B's while I get straight E's and F's, I'm really such a disgrace. Why can't I be like my brother? Why must be such a stupid girl ? Why can't I work hard? Why am I so lazy? Why do my parents have to say hurtful things to me? Why me? Why me? Anybody feel me?:( yeah, another problem. Friends. I'm a fucking butch who gets jealous of every fucking thing. I'm really a bitch, y'know. Actually I'll be better of being lonely. People like Ryan ho, Dominic Luna, liyee, they all deserve friends that I have I'm not A's good A's you think I am, I'm a bitch, but I don't understand why so many people care about me? This few days my heart really hurts alot, but no one will ever know, because nobody reads my blog and I'm glad , because I can rant everything out without changing my friends impression towards me. All I want to do now, is seat down, alone, and cry. And cry , and cry, like how useless people do. I hope someone would just take my hourglass and turn it around. Theresa. The useless.