心酸的夜晚

今天我又哭了，哭呀哭，哭呀哭。然后想起你，那个城近是我最要好的朋友。打开你写给我的信。又哭了，真是没用，我是一位失败者，我永远不会出人头地。永远只会让最爱我的人失望。我又肥，又丑，么人会爱。真的，我只有缺点。优点我一个都想不到。你们看，这算不算废物？ 我想啊，如果我死了，大家可能会过的开心一点。今晚，我的心很酸。haiz...

it's funny how things change.

hey mel,
remember how we became bestfriends?:) i do , haha. i remembered when i was sec 2 i got totally random and send to you a message saying ' hi babe, can you be my new bestfriend? ' and you replied with a 'okay :) ' and from then on we started talking and not long after, we became bestfriends.:') but this year, it's werd how things changed huh?:) tears still fall down from my cheeks when i read the letters you sent, isn't it such a pity that i have alr broken down your wall, but i built it back up again? think back about what happen, i would really lmao , haha, thinking how dumb i was to lose you:) oh well, thats the past alr, we have gone our own way, and i can see that you still feel awkward around me, sorry for causing so much pain. my deepest apology babe<3 stay strong:)
theresa

hey joces,
how have you been? i hope you are doing great, the separation of classes really distant us we all busy living our own lives, so hard to get chances to talk to each other. :/ hmm, oh well, this is life right? i'll never forget about how we got so crazy until we think about getting married together:) haha thats a crazy thought, but babe, can you promise me to study?:( we must take our o levels together!:( lets strive hard together, you know you mean alot to me and i love you< i dont know if youread my blog anot but i just wanna tell you, i love you babe, and please study hard:( i'm so worried for you:/ haiz<3 love you babe!
theresa!:)

it's never gonna be the same again.

well, i'm screw, especially with my SCT2, i don't have the motivation to study anymore, i guess, you used to motivate me when i wanna give up? i'm damn fucked up right now, i dwanna fail my exams, but i can't find/ see the emergency of study for the common test anymore, i don't want to fail, or i don't want to drop, i wanna stay in my class, and i want to study, but i can't seem to get any motivation from myself. now, i'm getting really rebellious ! i hate how different i'm becoming, i really getting lazy! please! can some one save me from all this agony? god, i'm lost...
theresa

Scorpio & Capricorn Friendship Compability

Scorpio & Capricorn Friendship Compability When Scorpio and Capricorn form a friendship, they can help each other to mature as individuals and to learn the value of a loving connection. Shyness, reservations and distrust of others may dampen the initial impact of this friendship. It takes a long time for this duo to open up to one another and feel comfortable together. However, once they have learned to trust, share and care for another person, their connection will be secure and strong. Scorpio and Capricorn have a lot to learn from one another, as well as a lot to work through together. Scorpio can learn to cool their heated emotions through Capricorn's proficient and stable behavior. However, this sentiment may also backfire for Scorpio who may become irritated at Capricorn's apparent lack of emotional depth. Capricorn can learn to probe more deeply within themselves and all aspects of life from their more intense friend. Both Signs share a love of committing to a task. Scorpio is ruled by the Planets Mars and Pluto, and Capricorn is ruled by the Planet Saturn. Mars and Pluto represent aggression, courage, sexual energy, rebirth and renewal. Saturn teaches the great lessons in life -- hard work, diligence, ambition and responsibility. Both Signs combine to form an industrious union bound by Scorpio's fierce emotion and Capricorn's ambitious action. This is a dynamic pair. Scorpio is a Water Sign, and Capricorn is an Earth Sign. The Earth is in touch with practical matters and material possessions. This is a good balance for the Water element, who tends to take on the shape of a given situation in the form of an emotional reaction. If stability and flexibility are practiced by Capricorn and Scorpio, respectively, then each is able to effectively share their knowledge and qualities with their close friend. Scorpio is a Fixed Sign, and Capricorn is a Cardinal Sign. Capricorn usually initiates new and useful projects for themselves and the world around them. Scorpio is happy to follow suit and work on their friend's ideas, but will want to interject their own opinions. It would be wise for Capricorn to stop a moment, listen and open their channels of communication as much as possible for their friend. Both Signs are stubborn, and this could lead to some potential conflict. Also, Scorpio is much more emotionally involved in the friendship than the SeaGoat, and perhaps more than the SeaGoat is capable. Both friends must recognize this and accept it if their connection is to be fortuitous. The best aspect of the Scorpio-Capricorn friendship is their determination to shared ideas and their strong devotion to one another. They can strive to teach one another about different ways of perception.

Never gonna be good enough..

Speaking of leaving friendship stuffs aside, here you come and screw me up. it's always me looking out for you. And all you do is leave me hanging here feeling lost? You're falling back to where you almost fell but I once saved you and bring you to somewhere safer, But you gradually go back to where you first started off. I'm trying so hard, and if you tell me you re also trying hard think again. Think of everything I did for you, then think about what you did for me. I'm really tired. I can't carry this on any much longer. I have always thought of putting the past whine ! But everything you say links back to the past. I'm sorry that I can't handle my friendship well. I'm sorry for never being good enough for you, I just wanna make things right, but it seems so hard. I was the first to break down most part of your wall, but one confession, ONE, lead your wall to built up, built up strong and firm, while the rest of the people are still trying to break it down. Well oh well, I lost.. And I Admit, 我输的幸福口服. Cause I gave it all I had but everything is getting in my way.. We don't Text like best friends do, we don't h2h like bestfriends do, we don't hang out often like best friends do, I think we don't even feel comfortable together. I was thefirst to ask, but to get a second chance, and I give up.. We are really not meant to be best friends.. Sorry babe, I guess it's over. If you don't talk to me, I'm Not talking to you. Really very tired. If you don't understand, really really really tired...
Bye-bye,
Theresa

it's the little things in life

I promise myself to start forgoing on the stuffs i like to do most and start studying, i don't have anymore time to play hard and stuffs like that, I'm not trying to say i can't play, just not as much as before, not and slacky as before and no more procrastinating! yes! I promise myself that, and when ever i look at my blog, i will remember, i really need to catch up on every single subject already. can't play hard anymore, after O levels, maybe i will. but who knows? I might be studying during my birthday?:) hahaha! yea, I really have to buck up and start studying, and stop living in this idle world of my own.

It's Sunday! Tomorrow is Monday! :( I'm so not prepared for school! Homework are all more or less done, but i don't know if it's in the right format or whatsoever .. anyway, I've been crazily talking about my studies! well, i have decided to put, friendship problems and love aside, not gonna waste anymore time on this useless stuffs anymore, gonna work hard and achieve something when i grow up! now, in my mind the only thing is study! haiz, it's gonna be a rough year, both this and next year! hope i can do well in my D&T at least that would help right? got to buck up on my Chinese, Mathematics, and history~
all the best theresa!
I CAN DO IT!!!!!!!!
okay bye! ( i'm hungry:( )

who do you think you are?

"Jar Of Heart" by Christina Perri


I know I can't take one more step towards you
'Cause all that's waiting is regret
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore
You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

I hear you're asking all around
If I am anywhere to be found
But I have grown too strong
To ever fall back in your arms

And I've learned to live half alive
And now you want me one more time
And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Who do you think you are

Dear, it took so long just to feel alright
Remember how to put back the light in my eyes
I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed
'Cause you broke all your promises
And now you're back
You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
So don't come back for me
Don't come back at all

And who do you think you are
Running 'round leaving scars
Collecting your jar of hearts
And tearing love apart
You're gonna catch a cold
From the ice inside your soul
Don't come back for me
Don't come back at all
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?
Who do you think you are?

thorn apart inside of me, haha, hate life like some shit, receiving text every morning, texts that make me tongue tied, lost with words nothing to say, don't what to say too, i guess, it's my turn, that my wall is building up, but please don't blame me, i'm really feeling very insecure right now, i don't know whether to hold you tight or let you go, i'm hesitating please understand what i'm going through now, just for once, will you. haiz. i always fail as a friend la:/ oh well, i'm just bored.
bye