burning hot.

Life is so tough that even tho my arms are hurting, the things that you do to me hurt me twice as hard. I fucking know who you're talking about. And I know it isn't me. I'm really blaming myself, blaming myself for not being able to be the next person who means alot to you, you don't have to tell me anything. Cause you have to know that actions speak louder than words. And you are really affecting me. Everytime I think about you. Everytime I think about how to make you trust me, and love me more. Everytime I try my best and give you more. Everytime I say things because I just want you to care alittle more, and everytime. All I'm getting back, is nothing. You know it's hard for me. I feel Like as tho somebody just rubbed sand paper on my sunburns, you hurt me more then everybody else. Just that you are not seeing it. But yet. In my heart, you're the one I cherish most. I want to tell you something. When that thought strucked me, I texted you straight away. But everything I got back hurts, forget it. I guess I know where I stand. I'll just let all my expectations go. I just know you're different. Had and awesome 'beach party' with my babes today YO!:) just that my sun tan was real bad:) haha. Nothing much man. I flew a kite for the first time~ :P bye.