i'm sorry:(

i'm really really trying not to cry:( that tear almost fall from my eyes,
Fristly i wanna say sorry, mum, i didn't mean to make you cry i'm really pissed off , and there is nobody to me with me:( i have done to wrong move, i failed, i never thought they would leave you, i thought me leaving your life would have them to take care off you, but i'm still not accepting you as a friend because i don't want to hurt you like how i did before, i'm really lost now, seriously, i'm not kidding, i really don't know what to do, i don't know what has gotten in me, i'm sorry everyone, especially men, i seriously a failure, nothing in my life is going right, all i want is to cry and cry and cry and never stop until i feel better, but i gotta be strong, nobody in my life really know the real me, if i show you the real me, all i'm scared is that you would just turn around and leave my life, i seriously got no one to hold now, i wonder how many people really understands, :( haiz, yeah, my fault, nobody cares too thanks. bye, i think you all should stop reading my blog, i suck, i'm not fit as a friend, thanks, bye

-theresa