random:)

Your best friend is the one who's laughed with you, cried with you, and despaired with you. Your best friend is the one who loves and accepts all the strange or quirky things about you. Your best friend is the one who's shirts are stained with mascara from your tears. Your best friend is the one who can look at you and have a whole conversation without moving their mouth once. Your best friend is the one who's seen you at your worst, and said you were the best. Your best friend is the one who fought for and defended you-even when they knew you were wrong. Your best friend is the one who can honestly say "I love you." and not think twice about how it was taken. Your best friend is the one who crashes on your couch at four in the morning. Your best friend is the one who kicked you in the ass and straightened you out when you were about to make a big mistake. Your best friend is the one who knows you inside out. Your best friend is the one who never has to ask- they already know the answer. Your best friend is the one with whom you can't play twenty questions because they already know the answer to every question. Your best friend is the one who fought with you, missed you, and made up with you after many bitter exchanges were made. Your best friend is the one who stood by your side when you were having a hard time, and always forgave you for being a b*tch. Your best friend is the one who doesn't expect an apology but deserves one. Your best friend is the one who covered for you to keep you out of serious trouble. Your best friend is the one who never judged you for what you had done, never called you a dirty name because you had been less than good. Your best friend is the one who is your main partner in crime. Your best friend is the one who will always need you and miss you in times of need when you can't be there, but knows you would be if it was possible. Your best friend is the one whom you may need most, who will always seek your company, but will push you away to avoid pulling you down with them when they know they can't win.

what i have learned

I've learned that we don't have to change friends,If we understand that friends change.

I've learned that something that you do in an instant, can give you heartache for life
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I've learned that you should always leave loved ones with loving words, it may be that last time you see them.

I've learned that we are responsiable for what we do, no matter how we feel.

I've learned that either you control your attitude, or it controls you
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I've learned that my best friend and I , can do anything or nothing and still ahve a good time.

I've learned that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you are down, will be the one who helps you get up.

I've learned that sometimes when i am angry i have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

I've learned that just because someone doesn't love you the way you want them too, doesn't mean they don't love you with all they have.

I've learned that maturity has more to do with what types of expirences you've had and what you learned from them, and less to do with how many years you have lived.

I've learned that it isin't always enough to be forgiven by others, but sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself.

I've learned that just because two people argue, doesn't mean they don't love eachother. And just because they don't argue, it doesn't mean they do love eachother.

I've learned that you shouldn't be so eager to find out a secrect, it may change you life forever.

I've learned that sometimes the people that you love most in lfe, are taken from you too soon.

I've learned that you can't make someone love you. All you can do is be someone who can be loved, and the rest is up to them.

I've learned that no matter how much i care, some people just dont care back.

I've learned that it takes years to build up trust, and just seconds to destroy it.

I've learned that it's not what you have in life, but who you have that counts.

I've learned that you can keep going, long after you think you can't.

I've learned that their are people who love you dearly, but just don't know how to show it.

I've learned that even when you feel you have no more to give, a friend cries out and you find the srenght to help.

I've learned that our backgrounds and circumstances may have influenced our lives, but we are responsiable for who we become

if you really knew me

If you really knew me, you’d know how much I’ve cried.
You’d see how much I’ve kept built up inside.
If you really knew me, you’d know all my fears.
You’d know that I never had anyone to wipe away my tears.

If you really knew me, you’d know how I really feel.
You’d know that I can’t seem to let the old wounds heal.
If you really knew me, then this you would know.
You’d know that there have been nights I’ve come close to letting go.

If you really knew me, you would look me in the eyes.
You’d know how I really felt and would look past my lies.
If you really knew me, you’d know what goes on behind closed doors.
You’d know that I feel like in my world it doesn’t rain, it pours.

If you really knew me, you’d know that in my world the glass is never half full.
You’d know that sometimes I feel that I won’t be in this world for the long haul.
If you really knew me, you’d find you really didn’t know me at all.
You’d know about the countless hours I spent crying curled up in a ball.

If you really knew me, you’d know the stories behind the scars on my arm.
You’d know that I caused the majority of them, not wanting to cause anyone else harm.
If you really knew me, you’d know that cutting was my escape.
You’d know the cuts were deep not merely a scrape.

The colorful bracelets I wear cover up the pain
You’d know I’m covering all the times, I cut across the same vein.
If you really knew me you’d know that hidden scars lie waiting below,
You’d know it’s a burning shame which no one should know.

If you really knew me you’d know I am strong because I am weak.
You’d know that I have hit my lowest peak.
If you really knew me, you’d know I am fighting my way back to the top.
You’d know that there is no way I am letting this fight in me stop.

If you really knew me you’d know I am fighting to stay strong.
You’d know that I am no longer doing my body wrong.
If you really knew me you’d know that I am in a better place.
You’d know that my drive to get better is at a slow and steady pace.

If you really knew me, you’d know I am no longer hiding behind the sorrow.
You’d know I am living for a better tomorrow.
If you really knew me, you would know I am in a better state of mind.
You’d know I have left the old version of myself behind.

-theresa

i'm sorry:(

i'm really really trying not to cry:( that tear almost fall from my eyes,
Fristly i wanna say sorry, mum, i didn't mean to make you cry i'm really pissed off , and there is nobody to me with me:( i have done to wrong move, i failed, i never thought they would leave you, i thought me leaving your life would have them to take care off you, but i'm still not accepting you as a friend because i don't want to hurt you like how i did before, i'm really lost now, seriously, i'm not kidding, i really don't know what to do, i don't know what has gotten in me, i'm sorry everyone, especially men, i seriously a failure, nothing in my life is going right, all i want is to cry and cry and cry and never stop until i feel better, but i gotta be strong, nobody in my life really know the real me, if i show you the real me, all i'm scared is that you would just turn around and leave my life, i seriously got no one to hold now, i wonder how many people really understands, :( haiz, yeah, my fault, nobody cares too thanks. bye, i think you all should stop reading my blog, i suck, i'm not fit as a friend, thanks, bye

-theresa

end-of-year-examination

Gah! in 14 days, our end of year examination is gonna start:< i have been choinging on my science! and next week i'm gonna choing my maths and history, theres nth i can do to help my english, so yeah? thanks alot mrs siow..... yeah, i'm so bored and tired,
yeah so now i'm wondering what will happen between wing and nick, they were once best off friends until daniel came ...
now i'm just worried what will happen between wing and nick. i'm worried. i just hope they stay best off friends<3 god bless.

byebye
-theresa